Michael Jackson: Tortured Soul

An innocent child whose childhood and youth was stolen by a tyrannical, abusive father.
Psychologically wounded so deeply that his soul clearly never mended.

Eternally seeking the lost innocence he was so brutally deprived of.


To me, his music and dance was nothing short of magical.
Inspiring, Stirring, and yes….even elevating.


I sensed some time ago that he was not long for this world.
Excruciatingly Lonely, confused, and isolated – despite the selfish hordes that constantly surrounded him.

I mourn his loss for myself and millions of others who would have shown him true love if given the chance.

I mourn the death of our Popular Culture that now celebrates misogynistic, violent rap, and call it “music”.


I grieve for our children growing up surrounded by talentless “celebrities” with vacant souls.

I pray Michael has Eternal Peace now.
No paparrazzi.
No stalkers.
No pain haunting his living and waking dreams.

May your own words comfort your soul Michael.

Whatever happens, don’t let go of my hand
Whatever happens, don’t let go of my hand
Whatever happens, don’t you let go of my hand.

May the good Lord keep you in His precious, loving Hands.


Have a few words with my Dad and George.
They won’t judge you.
I promise.


32 Responses to “Michael Jackson: Tortured Soul”

  1. KarL M says:

    They say “the good die young”… Angel, your words touched the soul.
    I sincerely hope that those left behind here on earth will take a few precious moments and take “inventory” and ask….what will they say about ME when i am gone…and if perhaps you want those words revised/updated, start today and make a difference!!!!…GOD BLESS US ALL….

  2. Pasadena Closet Conservative says:

    I worry about his children. They are surrounded by monumental dysfunction — the Jackson family and a mother who sold her eggs to a freak and then walked away. We must pray for them.

  3. MK says:

    He was definitely a good musician, i won’t dispute that, but he was also a flawed one.

  4. joe says:

    If you can’t speak well of someone, don’t speak at all. Sorry Angel, I don’t feel the way you do on this one.

  5. runescape money says:

    Michael Jackson was a very good singer and I loved all his music.
    I wish I could have met him in person.
    I would have loved to shake is hand.
    I will mist him very much.Rest in peace Michael.

  6. Always On Watch says:

    I think that when the truth comes out about Michael Jackson’s father, the world is going to gasp. For a long time, I’ve thought about why MJ had such a tortured personal life. My instincts could be wrong, but I think that his father did things to the MJ. Very bad things.

    Typically, an individual is not as messed up as MJ was unless something wicked went on inside the home.

    I note that MJ was very careful with his words and changed his expression in his eyes when speaking of his father.

    The above said, I’ve always said and I’ll say again: Michael Jackson was a musical genius. I can’t help from dancing — or trying to, anyway — when certain of his songs play.

    The video in this posting is one of my absolute favorites, even though it is so sexually suggestive.

  7. DD2 says:

    Yes it’s sad when anyone dies. enough. He’s not Mother Teresa, so quit treating it like some Saint died. … Enough already with the Michael Jackson coverage! .
    This coverage is bigger than if the Pope died. I had just about enough of this excessive Jackson coverage. There some very important stuff going on right now in the Oval office. What about IRAN? Are we going to wag the dogs tail about a child Molester and get Ayatollah Khatami, and Ahmadamnutjob off the hook when they are calling for a harsh crackdown on demonstrators?
    Unfortunately for Iran. The Democrats are too busy holding candlelight vigil for Michale Jackson

  8. gramiepat says:

    Oh come on already and give us a break! This man doesn’t warrant this type of attention. Our so called leaders are getting ready to pass some of the largest tax hikes in our history and we are spending all of this tme on one individual that wasn’t any more than the other celebrity’s that past away this month. Give it a break…
    Ok he’s dead, and so are many, many other celebrities, most of them were much better human beings than this guy was.. What about Farrah, who was a real good person? I won’t even comment on what kind of person I think Michael Jackson was. Farrah was by far better person than Jackson and she get pushed back over a pervert!!!! does not make sense to me, are we all sick?
    I am so sick and tired of the media going bonkers over such a perverted person as he was.

    Now can we get on with some real news?

  9. Tweekie B says:

    Yes,Farah died too. Why is it the strange cases and the weird one’s get the most coverage? I felt bad when Ed McMahon’s tribute was all about Johnny Carson. I loved Johnny but there was more news coverage about Johnny than Ed. And now Al Sharpton and Jessie Jackson is in the news again because of this child molester Michael Jerko Jackson. Talk about political correctness! Sharpton says nothing and defends nobody unless they are black.

    Michael Jackson was a miserable 50-year-old human being who made a series of very, very bad decisions. He deserves our pity, not our adulation. He was totally self-involved, and he was surrounded by parasites, and fellow sicko’s..
    I am sorry that he is gone, as I am sorry for anyone who dies young. But to treat this like the death of a head of state is ridiculous. I tune into Fox for news not this sensationalism. I am much more concerned about the state of the US and the economy and all you have on is the same thing over and over. “King of Pop” Did you know that he gave that title to himself? I don’t respect the person. I will not be a hypocrite. I once loved and danced to many of his hits 20 years ago but I can’t get past his sexual offenses against children
    Yes the man was very talented, a very talented pedophile.
    Well at least the children around the world are a little safer.

  10. Im here to say it says:

    This man was a serial child molester, an unfit parent (let’s not even talk about the baby dangling incident) and in complete denial about the fact that he was a grown man (dare I mention the tree climbing…) In the words of Katt Williams “how did Martha go to prison when Michael Jackson’s walkin around smelling like roses!
    Michael Jackson is a pedophile, the families were paid very well to keep it out of court, any guy who sleeps with children in his bed is behavior that shows he has indecent tendencies towards children. His skin condition is due to the vast amounts of surgery which is self inflicted and has affected the pigment of his skin, if it were Vitiligo the truth of that is the skin goes patchy not 1 solid color through out

    Face facts the guy was sick and twisted and a fruit cake. Now theres 1 less pedophile in this world to make the kids safer.

  11. JINGOIST says:

    I have mixed feelings on this subject. I truly believe him to be guilty of child molestation, and you don’t even want to know how I’d deal justice there, I know he was abused as a child, but…

    Now I’ll also have to admit that my wife and I were up last night youtubing Dancing Machine, ABC, Billy Jean, Heartbreak Hotel and other great songs and dancing our asses off!

    The whole episode is sad to me.

  12. Katie says:

    I don’t mourn his loss. I mourn for those who have been murdered by the Mullahs in Iran. I mourn for those who have been killed by terrorists around the world. But I will not mourn for a man who instead of seeking professional help for his emotional and psychological wounds, sank into depravity. I worry about his children for they are with those who abused their father when he was young. And I wonder about the media who knocks a revolution in Iran and N. Korea threatening their neighbors off the news and replaces it with a wacked out singer.

  13. DD2 says:

    What Katie says, goes for me as well……….
    What has become of us? we worship Jackson like he was a saint, when in reality, he was a jack ass.
    They go into the streets and
    meanwhile the soldiers of our great nation are not mourned when they die. sad day.
    They light candles set up all these ridicules memorials, sing kumbaya on the street corners in Harlem 24 hours a day, singing and dancing to his songs , but when a GI returns from a war they spit on him.
    Yes he’s dead and let him RIP. love or hate him., but let’s get over it already.

    How about honoring a woman who had fought a brave fight with cancer like Farrah Faucett who was a beautiful talented woman who struggled with cancer and sadly lost her battle at the same time as Jackson. No one is lighting candles in the streets for her. Larry King, and all the rest of them are not giving her a minute of silence!
    Lets honor people by speaking the TRUTH about them no matter if it’s pleasant or not! Our judicial system does fail at times and if it didn’t he would have been in Jail.

  14. PhantomMan says:

    DD2 said it best..
    Take a GOOD look at him! He looked like a sack of crap, if he didn’t have the talent that he did he would be completely worthless. Why worship a sack of crap that hurt children’s lives?
    No-one can argue that he is a sick sick pedophile — where there is smoke; there’s fire. anyone who thinks he is innocent of molesting children is naive.
    So yes, he will be remembered as a great artist as well as a pedophile.

    So “Beat It”

  15. Im here to say it says:

    Hi Angel, you wrote on my blog
    “ah I see others dont share my appreciation for him”

    I DO appreciate his talent but as the folks above me have wrote..I don’t appreciate his being a total creep and a child molester. And that is more important.
    Btw, I just heard on Fox news that
    Michael Jackson’s Brother Tito was Found Alive At Age 55, alive but Drunk as hell.

  16. Debbie says:

    He was talented, but I didn’t care for him. I realize he was abused as a child and that did affect his entire life, but others have been abused also and were normal. Not so with Michael Jackson.

  17. Brooke says:

    I’m sorry, but regardless of Jackson’s abuse, he was a disgusting pedophile. I can’t listen to his music anymore, and I’m not surprised that he’s gone. There won’t be only Demerol in his system…

  18. sayitlikeitis says:

    SICKO goodbye.
    The saddest thing about his death was that he stole the show from a couragous and beautiful woman, Farrah Fawcett whose heroic death was on the same day as the SLIME BALL…

  19. The BoBo says:

    My wife and I were discussing him today while watching a video perspective…he seemed so happy during all of his videos up through thriller. Something happened after the Thriller album between his Bad album. He never seemed to enjoy himself or smile again after that. Too bad and what a shame. He went through a total physical and mental transformation.

  20. Don L says:

    I have aserious problem with the Congress of the United States honoring this person with a moment of silence – though I’ll agree to pray for his very troubled soul.

  21. Im here to say it says:

    People say that there will never be another Michael Jackson, I say I hope so.
    For people who loved Michael Jackson for his talent, creative genius, and ability to express the joy and exhilaration.. I say, get a life!

  22. Throwing Stones says:

    Only in America can someone be born a poor black kid, and die a rich white woman.
    If only people showed the same amount of concern for the children he molested, and their well being, as they do for Michael Jackson, the world will be a better place. Now that there’s one less child molester in it.

  23. The BoBo says:

    “Only in America can someone be born a poor black kid, and die a rich white woman.”

    Good one! LOL

  24. z says:

    Thanks, Angel, I’m with you. The guy was a MESS and I don’t believe he chose to be one…and I’m so glad you posted BILLIE JEAN, I just watched the whole thing. He gave a LOT of people a LOT of pleasure; I doubt he had an hour of real happiness. xx

  25. Throwing Stones says:

    z says: ..He gave a LOT of people a LOT of pleasure;

    And a lot of other much displeasure

  26. Maggie Thornton says:

    I loved, and still love, his music. I abhorred him personally. God gave him so much talent and he misused and abused it. I understand that his father’s role in life likely changed his life, but he had the money and the power to change himself, and the way he looked at his own life. He didn’t do that. Instead, he only shunned his dark skin and his nose. He thought he was above it all, and still professed that there was nothing wrong with sleeping with boys – that even after the first scandal.

    He brought children into his bazaar world with no maternal influence – and knowing that there would never be a maternal influence in their lives.

    He took from people and gave back nothing but his music and dancing. He let others pay his way. He left this world owing others. There is nothing right about that.

  27. Susannah says:

    I’m w/ PasClstConser. & Jingoist on this. I mean, you all have very good points, theirs is where my thoughts fit the best, though. PCC is very concerned for the kids – as well anyone w/ an ounce of compassion should be. “Monumental dysfunction” indeed.

    And then I feel conflicted. What a great talent. What a sad life. I feel sad for who & what he could have been – under different circumstances. But I also feel sad for the concentric circles of people that were impacted by his influence. There’s a lot of sadness; the loss of what ‘could have been’. Wow. May God have mercy on him & everyone in those circles.

  28. elvis says:

    A musical genius??? hmmmmmm
    Have we heard of JS BACH? W.A. Mozart ? Beethoven? Brahms?debussy? Scheonberg? Stravinsky?? and on and on.
    The word genius is over used. I suggest everyone look it up.

    MJ was a media creation. Ok he could dance. So could Fred Astaire and Gene Kelly… and they could sing too.(BTW did you see them grab their crotch all the time like a first grader that has to go to the bathroom?)There are many that are very talented ENTERTAINERS.

    Some one you may like and that entertains you does not make them a genius.

  29. dapoppins says:

    I hope he found peace, and that his children find peace in their future. What a loss for them.

  30. Layla says:

    I believe this is one of the most beautiful tributes you have ever done, and out done yourself all at once. Know you yourself dance and can appreciate the arts in a way many of us cannot, you can feel things some of us cannot.

    I am a silent reader these days my dear friend, but I had to tell you this once that you got it so beyond right. Others may scoff, but you got it — I am familiar with my own tortured soul as we all are at one time or another. But we cannot judge and to say that just because others are abuse and come out okay as if to imply there is no excuse is inexcusable. We are all different and do not handle what is thrown upon us the same way.

    My Dad drank for years because he suffered through WW11 and was in a labor camp, many did not drink when they got out as he did for years. Should we judge him?

    Only God knows our heart and the depth in our souls and not one of us handle pain, abuse, misfortune the same. Lets not judge, but embrace the gift he gave us all – his talent, perhaps the only real love he knew and he shared that with all of us and his children.

    Rest in peace and love Michael now that you are in God’s hands – a far better place to be than in the hands of men and women that fall short of the glory of God.

    Again, beautiful tribute – Angel and you are and Angel.

    Going silent again………………….

    Love and hugs……….


  31. Gail says:

    Everytime I see the moon,I will think of you Michael
    This is just too too sad

  32. maj says:

    Most of you on this blog are outrageous with your thoughts.
    Michael Jackson did not molest children. He loved all children and respected them as angels on this earth.
    Sure he hated to look at himself…did not want to look like his father…in turn he butchered his face. So what ever harm was applied from Michael was only applied to himself, not to others.
    He cared about the world, he gave hundreds of millions of his money to charities. Mike walked the walk in life. Sure he was tortured, but he loved and respected everyone.
    We lost a wonderful human being June 25, 2009. There will never be another.